Everyday Superstar: Avri James

 “This is it, I promise.”  Landon’s voice was once again disturbing the tranquility of “Babbling Brook”.  I didn’t mind though, his willingness to talk and eagerness to understand felt nice; it felt RIGHT.  I smiled, eyes still closed, and groggily whispered, “Landon please, tomorrow.  We can pick up right from here, and I guarantee you, it’s not your final question!”  “I know, but you know you can’t tell a piece of something, or teach me something, especially when it’s about us, and not expect me to want to know everything right now.  You know I’m nosey like that!”  I smiled again, giving in, “Ok my love, what is it?!”  He perked up and got comfortable, attention completely focused on me.  “So you mean to tell me, all this time everything was as simple as honest conversation?! I mean, all the bullshit, the back and forth, had we just stayed true to what was already there, and rocked with it, then none of this would have happened?!”  His gaze intent…   “Well no, not exactly.  All I eve

“I Accept the Divine Moment of Life”  Those really must have been my final words; it was like, once I said them, a door that had been tightly shut, denying me entry, had at long last FLEW open.  Adonis and I departed shortly after to commence with our date that was temporarily derailed unbeknownst to him.  We had a really good time.  There wasn’t anything holding me back.  I was fully present for every moment, and glowing from the inside out by the time we started making our way back to Richmond.  We decided to sit in the park around the corner for a while; after all, it was a beautiful night.  We talked about everything, and a whole bunch of nothing too; just killing time.  For some reason, we both seemed to be trying to stretch the moment-as if the second we returned to Richmond, SOMETHING would change things between us forever.  We laid in the grass on the side of the hill, staring up at the stars.  We were in a really nice space…As I started to notice the significant difference in

  Life pressed on, as it always does.  My letter remained open with no response.  I went about my normal one-two, keeping myself occupied with all the city had to offer.  Spring had finally arrived, and the months of being indoors were at an end.  Things were ALIVE around me, and I could feel it, for the first time in a long time.  My emotions were on “Triple E”-I was completely depleted, and had nothing left but 0 fucks to give.  Adonis and I couldn’t wait to get Outside!  He was making his way to Richmond as we speak.  After more than a year of  tip-toeing around a man pretending to be Landon, I fully accepted the fact that this wasn’t MY LANDON, and that I was going to have to sever all ties.  That letter was his last and final opportunity to keep Avri James in his world in ANY way.  Initially, I felt some type of way, I mean this is the other half of me.  That moment of weakness is what generated the letter.  Something inside felt like I had to at least let him know that this was a