Oh wow; the Universe, and it's divine timing...absolutely HILARIOUS; almost to the point of tears! Here I was, in yet another precarious situation. Why can't I just ENJOY this moment?! Oh well, come on TRUTH, Destroyer of Worlds; lets get this over with! I sat for another minute or two; admiring the ring, and appreciating how far we had come. All I ever really wanted to know was exactly where we stand...that was something that was never definitive; making it almost impossible to know how to move. Now, here it was; REAL and in the physical, he and I; there was no other way to interpret what it meant...
One thing the past does is teach us how to move forward, preventing me from making the same mistakes twice. Even though I wanted to stay in the moment for just a little longer, as I glanced over at Landon, I could see slight distress setting in as he sat beside me awaiting my response. I took a deep breath, turned to face him, and just let it come out; very similar to regurgitation! "Tre has still been attempting to reach me; he wants to meet up before we leave for school; which is also in Columbus, as well..." I stopped just as abruptly as I began, closed my eyes, and braced from impact. I listened intently for the shift in his energy...a minute or so later, I un-clenched my existence, and peaked through my cracked eyelids over at Landon's face. He was looking over at me, looking slightly amused. I opened my eyes completely. He smiled at me and simply said, "Ok". Just like that, it was over. It was quick; I didn't know if I should be relieved, or worried. My face must have said so, because Landon immediately began to explain his reaction. "I meant what I said before, I just want you to tell me; I'm really not upset." Men meaning EXACTLY what they say; this is definitely going to take some getting used to...
After we left the city, we decided to go down to the waterfront for a little while. It was a beautiful summer night, and this would probably be one of our last opportunities to come to our favorite place before leaving for school. Come to think of it, how much would we REALLY com back to visit after we leave?! Everything was changing and moving FORWARD. I love being here with him. The rest of the world melts away, and its just us; in the purest forms of ourselves. We were able to enjoy being with one another without interference; able to appreciate it all, even if it was nothing. Our conversations here seemed to hold so much powers, much more special than anywhere else. After the past few weeks, I just wanted to be connected to him; for us to just crawl back inside of each other and STAY there. It has always been about just us two. Our relationship was completely contained within Richmond, and the few opportunities we found to escape. Now, we were about to enter an entirely new space and set of circumstances. I wasn't nervous, I was actually excited...
Coming to the waterfront meant I would get the opportunity to feel Landon out and see what he thought about it all. This was unfamiliar territory for him too, but in a different way. If we were alone, and in our place of peace, We could speak openly, honestly, and without reservation. That's the magic the waterfront held for us. "Do you know one of the reasons why I love us and am so fascinated by what we have?" Landon suddenly said. "Tell me." "I get to be regular and enjoy ordinary things. Any and everything we do together is special. I never really had time before to do much of anything, let alone sit somewhere in deep conversation. Yet, sitting here, and talking to you right now, I can't imagine anyplace else I would rather be." "Likewise." I said. I smiled to myself. He was doing our Wonder Twin thing where he read my mind and said it out loud before I had a chance to...
We really didn't do much talking for the rest of the time; just exchanging a few words here and there. We mostly sat silently, with my hand in his, truly happy to be near one another. We don't always need words. Sometimes the energy of what remains unsaid is far more powerful. I sat, staring down at our two intertwined hands; wondering if there would ever be words strong enough to articulate the entirety of what I feel for him; its soo much more than love...
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