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Siren

  "I gave you all the Love I got, I gave you all that I could give, I gave you Love...This is No Ordinary Love, No Ordinary Love...and I'm Falling..."                                                     ~Sade Sometimes I get the feeling that the Universe utilizes our lives as it's sole source of entertainment.  When I look at the shit we keep being presented with on a daily basis, it's becoming more and more apparent that the Creator is using us for shits and giggles.  Have you ever had a scent take you some place?  They say that scent is the closest of our senses tied to memory.  It can trigger emotions, reminding us of a specific space in time.  With the slightest sniff, we are immediately transported to that place; perhaps even a person... I had just gotten out of the shower, eager to start my day by opening a fresh bottle of my favorite lotion.  It was in a brand new limited edition scent, and I was already salivating at the thought!  Sitting on the edge of my
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"Breeze"

  It's amazing how intoxicating Peace can be.  When I say that absolutely Nothing  was happening in my World-and I couldn't be happier.  My friends were currently tired of me dishing out the exact same advice, "be honest about how you feel" at the moment.  Eh, that's literally the root of every  single problem ya'll are currently facing.   My family had even gotten hip to the fact that I was no longer simply saying 'yes' to any and all requests, so they really didn't have shit to say to me😂.  People have a tendency to keep their distance-and their business to themselves if you're not vested in what they have going on; more so if you aren't miserable and willing to commiserate...I'm MORE than OK with that.  As the Summer crept on, I found it harder to sleep straight through the night.  This wasn't anything new, I sometimes experience a little seasonal insomnia from time to time.  It had just begun to rain as I opened my eyes.  I had

Charleville 9200

"Why you take me up this high?  /Just to put a hole in my Parachute /So I would fall for you /And why you let us get this low? /When you know I'd give up my life for you /Ride and I'll die for you, I...Say do you remember? /Back when shit was good /2 kids in the night /We were so Alive..."                                                                                 Snoh Aalegra You know, we all talk endlessly about happiness; more specifically, what we need to achieve it.  In actuality, it's something that emanates from within.  There is not one thing outside of yourself that can contribute to your personal happiness in any way.  We obsess over the details of our lives in an attempt to place the blame of unrealized potential on anything  else...except You ...it's just you  stopping you, and   Nothing  else.  Focusing on you, you're able to see all the methods of self-sabotage that we participate in, which is why we don't like to analyze ourselves. 

RNS

  It was just before dawn, and I was wide awake...Landon's words about learning one another played in my head like a verse on repeat; I couldn't stop thinking about them.  He was right; on sooo  many levels.  We had spent so much time building and maintaining our own individual identities, I didn't realize we had spent hardly any  on our collective one.  Landon and I had no idea how to be in an actual relationship with the adult versions of ourselves.  I mean, technically, we had One Summer-as children-that's it.  He and I had been separated for a long time; one that saw us transition from kids to adults.  When we came back together, we only focused on the things that remained the same; giving little to no regard for all the things that had changed.  In all actuality, neither one of us had any idea of what the adult versions of us were even really like... Come to think of it, I couldn't remember the last time we had spent an entire day together...shit, had we ever? 

The Sentinel

  " It's not that I don't want you here, It's something about the way you stare into my eyes/I know that I don't make things clear, I fall for you every time I try to resist you..."                                                  Snoh Aalegra~ I Want You Around The more I live, the more I realize that our intended purpose in this particular lifetime is to simply observe-especially when it comes to ourselves.  Life itself is a living, breathing entity with a mind of its own; determined to express its most authentic self...with little to no interference from me.  It's becoming obvious, painfully, at times, that it still  happens... Life , that is; whether you choose to engage or not.  I came to this conclusion when it came to other people rather quickly; understanding that they really don't care what you think, they are just looking for validation in their own beliefs.  So I found it no great burden to make the comfortable shift to the background of the

"Naked"

Those of us currently walking the planet who are truly blessed, will have people in are lives who are the reflections of who we truly are.  If we are lucky enough, we see ourselves, and embrace this; even when what's being reflected back isn't a show of our finest hour.  For whatever reason, I seemed to be this mirror (completely unsolicited AND unwanted, BTW!) for almost everyone in my life.  The funny thing is, they ALL seemed to know  it.  I was always expected to have some profound incite into what was happening in their lives.  Then there are the ones that just keep their distance altogether because they're afraid I'll see something that they're hiding from the rest of the world.    I don't want to be involved with anyone's  shit!  As a matter of fact, I actively go around avoiding others because I have no desire to emmesh myself.  I have a mirror too; Landon.  I know all too well how hard it can be to face yourself, realizing that You are your only rea

Pieces of Me

  " It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real, I like the way that feels...its as if you know me better than I ever knew myself, I love how you can tell, all the pieces, pieces, pieces of me..."                                                          ~ Ashlee Simpson I Like me; ALOT.  I love how my mind works, the way I think about all the possibilities before making a decision.  Overall, I'm pretty satisfied with my choices, and prepared to deal with any fallout that may come.  I don't have secrets; if you don't know, then it's none of your business.  That goes Double  for my personal life.  It's between Me, and the other party involved- that's it.  The less people involved, the less explanation you have to offer when things change.  I never complain, never explain.  If you want to mess with me, you have to be willing to accept the fact that I change my mind; OFTEN.   It's a get down, or lay down situation; very cut and dry.  Lan