"Why you take me up this high? /Just to put a hole in my Parachute /So I would fall for you /And why you let us get this low? /When you know I'd give up my life for you /Ride and I'll die for you, I...Say do you remember? /Back when shit was good /2 kids in the night /We were so Alive..." Snoh Aalegra You know, we all talk endlessly about happiness; more specifically, what we need to achieve it. In actuality, it's something that emanates from within. There is not one thing outside of yourself that can contribute to your personal happiness in any way. We obsess over the details of our lives in an attempt to place the blame of unrealized potential on anything else...except You ...it's just you stopping you, and Nothing else. Focusing on you, you're able to see all the methods of self-sabotage that we participate in, which is why we don't like to analyze ourselves.
It was just before dawn, and I was wide awake...Landon's words about learning one another played in my head like a verse on repeat; I couldn't stop thinking about them. He was right; on sooo many levels. We had spent so much time building and maintaining our own individual identities, I didn't realize we had spent hardly any on our collective one. Landon and I had no idea how to be in an actual relationship with the adult versions of ourselves. I mean, technically, we had One Summer-as children-that's it. He and I had been separated for a long time; one that saw us transition from kids to adults. When we came back together, we only focused on the things that remained the same; giving little to no regard for all the things that had changed. In all actuality, neither one of us had any idea of what the adult versions of us were even really like... Come to think of it, I couldn't remember the last time we had spent an entire day together...shit, had we ever?