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"Distortion"

So Ya'll know I just be minding my Avri business, Right?!  I don't bother anyone...I just move throughout my day; wrapped up in my own little flow...trying my hardest not to allow the actions of others to affect me...Yesterday was one of the very same; nothing too much out of the ordinary.  It was pouring rain, but I was safely nestled inside. Wrapped in my coziest sweater, I was awaiting my virtual team meeting to start.  As a flash of lightning ripped across the evening sky, I silently thanked the Universe for modern technology.  Within the next few minutes, my fellow staff members tickled into the virtual conference room.  Amarrah came in first, on two different devices at once; causing an avalanche of feedback and echoes.๐Ÿ˜‚  Next was Ginger, then Naomi, followed by Tatiana, last and finally, Ms. Aubreigh graced us with her presence.  The meeting could now commence... There was nothing particularly different about this particular meeting; since we really hadn't seen one
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Avri Speaks

Emotional Intelligence...What a glorious thing!  Do I dare to even Dream it possible from Landon?  One thing we are NOT, my dear Avri James is a Dummy .  Time after time, this man has brought you to a certain precipice; only to disappoint; leaving you completely shattered.  Even though he keeps saying he wants ALL of your parts, anytime you display any behavior that is not pleasing(which, might I add, is generally ALWAYS prompted by one of these sudden with drawls), you don't exist.  You have endured years of emotional and physical neglect-all for the sake of you paying for some so called crime of the heart that you committed as a child; to the likes of which he was equally responsible.  Don't you dare sacrifice how far you've come and everything you've built because it Sounds  good.  Remember, this won't last.  THINK  baby girl; he can't breathe, so he needs to come up for air.  Landon is SMART; he can read the room too...Don't Play Yourself... I laid back

"Amerie"

  "...So many things I'm going through, So much that I wanna do~It's starting to become so clear to me, tomorrow ain't really guaranteed~So many days I've thought of you, it's about time you knew the truth~Gotta act quickly you and I, to fall in Love so many reasons why..." I could feel the sun slipping through the downturned slats of my wooden blinds.  It crept slowly across the floor; climbing my bedspread, and finally kissing my fingers before I opened my eyes.  I smiled, thanked the Universe for Life, and rolled over, feeling around for my book.  I hadn't fully decided if I was quite ready to get up yet.  Still in mid-thought, the sound of chimes began to softly ascend; it was my phone reminding me of the day I had ahead of me.  Whelp, decision made.  I'm up.  I didn't mind too much though; today had the potential to be dope.  I love the Summer.  It's the way the air smells; IDK, it does something to me...Melanie and I had a whole day l

Home

It's a Feeling; and Entire Vibe... It's crazy, but I just realized I'm Happy ( Don't judge me bitches for not noticing right away, life has been relentless!)  But FRFR, it's actually been pretty dope๐Ÿ˜  Everyday isn't necessarily fantastic, but what makes it great is the fact that simply deciding to make a different choice can change Everything.  Not knowing what's going to happen from one day to the next can be pretty exciting!  It's almost like your girl got some new writers on this show called Life that I FINALLY fuck with, they putting out some new material I actually want to watch... Suddenly life stopped feeling like work; it was something I truly wanted to show up for.  Waking up each day to meet its newness was something I was starting to look forward to.  The stuff of other peoples' lives didn't even affect me the way it used to.  It was like everyone around me was in their own separate bubbles, staring in their own individual sitcoms; a

Breaking Dawn

  All the best movie legacies ever created were made in trilogy.  This next phase of my life was MY Part III…Get your popcorn ready bitches!!   As with all things, time marches on, and the inevitability of change was upon me…fuck that, it was ON me; my head all but refusing to sink below the surface.  And why not?!  I mean, I was actually ACHING for a new experience.  You wanna know the craziest part, I wasn’t in the least bit afraid.  So what was the problem?!  Simple.  ME.  “Go ahead Avri.”  That still small voice from inside softly whispered.  Ok then.  So, I took a deep breath, eyes wide open, and slowly let my head sink into the abyss(oh btw, that meant a job, like a REAL one๐Ÿ™„)…The next thing I knew, I was standing in the Crystal Flame, a Holistic Candle Bar, fully employed.  All kinds of things were running through my head, but it was completely overshadowed by pure excitement.  I had begun the next phase of my journey, and for the first time, I was going WILLINGLY.  There is a

Whoa

  I could hear the sound of the rain before I opened my eyes, and smiled.  It was the perfect start to my day; the combination of rain, and waking up in the one place I was always meant to, OUR bed.  After the endless back and forth, and bullshit I could no longer account for, Landon and I had finally done it.  It felt like all we EVER did was talk and make plans about shit that was never executed.  The truth of the matter is, we didn’t DO much of anything.  This was a completely different experience, and I was still in disbelief; still a little afraid to open my eyes in case I had been dreaming.  I felt him stir next to me; confirmation.  I was safe.  I scanned the bed and nightstand quickly for my book, trying to move as little as possible.  Now that we lived together, these early morning hours were my only guarantee of quietness with my own thoughts.  Sharing my life with someone in this was new, yet EXACTLY where I was meant to be.  THIS, is what it had all been about; what it was

The Ascent

 To meet, and intertwine with your Twin Flame, in ANY incarnation, is a direct testament to your connection with the Divine.  It’s the most fulfilling, and powerful, yet painful relationship experience a person can have.  It’s not meant to merely provide you with the ideal partner, the true purpose is to be the catalyst that triggers your spiritual expansion and growth.  It isn’t until we come to that realization that life stops being such a struggle.  The connection is so strong, it seems impossible to break-because it IS.  You can never ultimately break from one’s self; attempting to do so will be both devastating and detrimental.  To deny yourself is to deny the one true Source of ALL.  A TF is ONE soul, occupying two different physical forms simultaneously.  Because of Ego, this relationship can and WILL be the most arduous endeavor you will ever embark on, for it’s meant to TRANSFORM you from the inside out.  It teaches you how to exist in the most authentic form; within the confi